PRETENCE

I don't know 

who i am anymore

i don't know

what i feel anymore

i don't know 

whether is it me or not

whether happy or sad

which one is the real me?

i don't want to pretend anymore

i don't want people to like me for the fake me

i don't want people to think what i am actually not

i want to be myself

i want to stop pretending

i want to say what i think

i want to show how i feel

i don't want to be a servant anymore

i want to be happy when i am happy

and sad when i am sad

i don't want others to be the one 

manipulating my feelings

i want people who will cherish me

as a friend not a servant

i don't want to do it anymore

it hurts too much

i just want to let it all go

maybe...just being alone for sometime is better

i don't want to lie anymore 

and i don't want others to lie to me

i feel like

i don't know who i am...

which person am i

what am i feeling?

its like happy or sad its still the same

sorry but

no more...pretence 


i ain't a perfect actress...

who can always act a perfect front