friends?

are you a TRUE friend?
i am tired of finding new friends
finding new people to talk to
lying to others and lying to myself
lying just to get acceptance.....
pleasing others and always giving in
never said no and always trying to help
i guess...its all over right now
i am not gonna do it anymore
why should i need to have friends who don't even bother?
who betray you
just need you when they are in trouble
just need you to be there for them but they are never there for you
always asking for help but they will never help you
maybe some times being alone is better
eventhough being alone really hurts
its like you are the only one in this world
no one there for you
no one to care for you
no one to say ur feelings too
no one to see you through
whats the point of living then?
sometimes i think that
i am okay and i am always okay with it
no friends its okay what since there are lots of people who no friends
but then when look back
feel very lonely
i don't want to be their maid or dogs anymore
i don't want to get used all the time
i don't want to follow the things they do
and always get punish for no reason
how come i am so foolish
just realised it now
just realised that all this while
i am all alone
no one to talk to
no one to listen what i say
no one ever like me for me
sometimes i thought
maybe i can change me
maybe i can be someone else
well maybe for now
living alone for a while is okay
i hope i will find true friends soon
people who like you for who you are
not for who you pretend to be
not for what you give
and not for what you do
just like you for YOU
is there friends like that?
maybe there is
just that i haven't met one
or the one that i met have been gone

-yuko-

heyya am back

hey i am back already

after so long didn't post anything here

i also don't know what to post

well i will just say a few stuff ya

these few days things haven't gone well at all

all my maths worksheet gone missing after all my effort in doing it

then my exam results have been bad especially maths

the rest of the subjects are all okay ...atleast gone 5A's out of seven subjects

still mom is not very happy

and also these few days due to don't know what reason

all my friends like don't want to friend me like that

aish...so depressed la... >< dun noe why le

and then when they need help they treat you like a queen

maybe they are not my true friends la

i also don't know what to say

anyways pleasing everyone is not going to help

now my face hurts because my teacher pinched me

lucky no blue black but hurts alot

already the second day today

nevermind about that then

now my cosplay stuff are all not ready yet

and all my things are in a mess

feeling so lazy to clean them up.... ><

lots of homework piling up too

arghs i hate studying and also doing homework...

anyways gambatteh nee minna san

...yuko...

Ryosuke Yamada - Perfume

earthquake in japan

now have earthquake in japan

my favourite country

hope everything will be fine

and those who saw the news,

hope you all will pray for japan

well er thats all

cosplay

emm..exam not yet over

but i am already thinking about cosplay

arghsss...no concentration >_<

well nvm la..once in a while is good to relax right?

anyways geography and science are tough so...just...

oh yea about the cosplay again

well let's just say about cosplay and forget geo and science

heheh...neways...

i thought of cosplaying misa amane..

ah but seriously a not pretty enough  >_<

er but then planning to cosplay during june

as rin kagamine .

hope i will not look too bad eh..heheh

about the other cosplays i wanna do

i guess will have to wait until time allows me to

heheh

well thats all lar nothing much already

bye bye.. ^^

geography and science test today

stressed >_<

not really lar..because still can online..

hahahas..but still a lil worried

to all my dearest sisters,

wkee chng, pohyi tan, jx toh, wei ping, jia chyi and me

wish you all good luck and god bless you ya

hope you all also get A's or else later sure mummy will sap sap sap wan

anyways do your best ya

er me also larh of course

wish me all the best uh..

hopefully get all A's

jia yu..jia yu ..pu yao fang qi

kaname cosplayer ^^

hello everyone ..its me again..hahah

please do me a favor by liking this link below

http://www.facebook.com/#!/Kaname.cos

thank you very much

its a page i created for KANAME and i hope

his fans out there will support and like this link

once again..thanks alot

みなさん、こんにちは..その私が再び.. hahah

このリンクを下記のが好きで私に好意を行ってください

http://www.facebook.com/＃！/ Kaname.cos

あなたは非常に感謝

そのページ私は要と私の希望のために作成

そこに彼のファンがサポートされ、このリンクをご希望です

再び..おかげで多くの

domo arigato gozai masu ^^
please like ya
lots of love, yuko alex

what is happy?

er what is happy?
people say happy means xing fu
if you smile and laugh that means you are happy
someone asked me if i have any happy moments in my life before
of course everyone have a happy moment
but then i don't know what to say
i don't know which one of my experiences is happy
i always thought i am happy
but then after i think of that question over and over again..
probably i really don't know the meaning of happy
maybe all this while its all pretence
lying to everybody..lying to myself..lying to God saying that
i am happy.
but deep down inside when i try to find which moment i felt happiness
i can't really find one
maybe because no one ever asked me this question before until today
maybe all this while i also don't care because i am too busy too care
but then sometimes at night when i cannot sleep i did think of all these nonsense
well the truth is i don't know about my own feelings i think
sometimes i tell myself i am happy but inside i feel like crying
feel like telling someone about my feelings
but then no one will listen or pay attention
at night when i cannot sleep until 3.3o ...there is no one to talk to either
sometimes i feel so lonely..so left out..so unwanted
well probably thats how i feel all this while
when i tell mom and dad they did say nonsense
when i tell my sis she would say padan muka..hahahah
when i want to tell my friends i realised there are none
....so what is happiness?

first entry

well er here goes
my first entry
well i don't really know what to say
so i will like just babble about
er okay here goes
well this blog mainly is about me
and stuffs related to me
and also things i like etcs.
all about my life and my feelings
will be right here
well its a lil boring but if you care to just drop by
and say hello am happy ^^
other than that i am also quite friendly
and i will try to update my blog as long as i have free time
well uh thats all....i guess